Chin Up

Today I woke up feeling really low.

Overwhelmed by my troubles and problems.

All I could think about was my debt, my (perceived) lack of success, my inadequacies and failings.

The sky was grey, the sun had stopped shining, it was cold.

All I could see was the bad stuff:  the grass needs cutting,

the fridge is empty, and I am alone again.

I put my head against the window and sighed, close to tears.

Does this sound familiar to anyone else?  Can we all relate to this?

Every human being goes through times like this.

However, the key words there, are: “Goes Through”.

Aim?  To Come Out The Other Side.

Now, I know all this in theory,

but can I  LIVE it  now I need it most?

I know that the secret with bad feelings, is to catch them as soon as possible, and Reverse them, flip them.

To halt the plummet downwards into depression, as soon as you notice it happening.

So I went to my most favourite place in the world, and sat in my front garden surrounded by Hedge.  Breeeeath in the morning,  breeeeath out my stress.

The first thing that happened, is three birds came to greet me. I said Hi, and they vanished again.  I felt very honoured!

Suddenly, the trees erupted in bird-song, in stereo, just for me!

Some on my right some in front, others farther away – the depth of the sound was stunning.  I felt like a conductor, sitting there beaming inanely at natures music around me  and waving my arms wildly at the trees!  I loved it.

(Sounds bonkers to you? It’s actually non of your business! This is my way OUT of my own depression. I will do whatever it takes to get my Chin Up, stick my chest out, pull my proverbial socks up).

As I relaxed more into the experience, I started noticing the colours all around me – how strongly beautiful the brown trunks were, how luscious the green of the leaves, the many shades of grass.

Finally, when my frame of mind was more attuned, I started thinking about the Truth.  Oh yes, there is the truth I started this writing with, but there is ANOTHER truth, that I choose to remind myself of and focus on.

I remembered, a most amazing Lady had written a newspaper article about me. I used this article to open up a new business direction and create new marketing material. This was Miracle No1 for the week.

Miracle No2 was meeting a man who will publicise me throughout all of Wrexham. I wrote him a song last night, he put it on the internet today! In two days time I will be presenting to a room full of businesses. Miracle No3 is, at the end of the week, I will be seeing my Best and Most Encouraging Friend, that’s a wonderful thing to look forward to.  All this and it’s only Wednesday!

So within the space of 30 mins, I had taken myself from the pits of despair, to the heights of joy and peace. The day hadn’t changed, the problems hadn’t gone. But my heart was lighter, and my spirit freer. In this state, surely I would attract more goodness into my life.

I did cry, but these were tears of joy and gratitude, partly because of the extreme victory I had just won, partly for the realisation  I was indeed a success, and wonderful things were happening to me.

The key to getting my Chin Up, was recognising these wonderful things, acknowledging them, remembering them, appreciating them, and choosing to rename a situation, and focus on the alternate Truth.